Lost!!!!

Hate the feeling whereby i am so lost and loads of unknown question mark popping out from my mind. This feeling really suck big thumb! Perhaps I think to much and my expectation is high or something. Well I have to let go many things and adapt and accept everything. What I am asking now it's that much from you? Things is not like the past. Do things tgt-watch tv tgt, sitting so close and play, share lil secret, talked on the phone for long hours, spend more time, skipped school tgt, eat tgt and such. But now... ... EVERYTHING THING START FROM THE BEGINNING AGAIN. THIS FEELING REALLY SUCK's I TELL YOU. FCK!

Sometime..

When i saw loving couple outside, I envy and I feel so jealous. I know this is life process, everyone have to go through it. But jealousy really hurt people even a small lil animals. How I wish I have my partner to spend more time with me, share my lil secret, share my high and low emotion with me too. I know I am not open enough to dbd though we are so close. I want to try, but the feeling wasn't there. Sometime i keep telling myself being single is alway the best. No worries, No jealousy, No argument. But more FREEDOM which i like it loads. I dont like the feeling of being tie down and preventing of something like argument and quarrel. Yes! I got attitude, who doesn't have? I love freedom, who doesn't like?

Made up my mind, I just wanna complete my higher nitec and graduate fast. Start up my career and move on to the next process. Dont wanna waste anymore time. One word: Enough!

eileen