Too many things to say and type but I don't know where should I start from. Recently many things happening around. Which I want it be avoid but it seem to come back like that.
I am feeling so shit inside. Something heavily living inside me. Guess it's time for me to open up my bottle and buried everything inside again. I don't know who can I actually talk to. Teachers? Friends? Sisters? Or family? I can say NON!
This is my very first time feeling this way. Perhaps love bring me to somewhere they called it a "hell" and "heaven" many times. I flunk most of my relationship previously. But I am learning how to be strong and overcome everything myself each time.
People always say : falling in love is nothing wrong, but falling for the wrong guy is wrong. I did question myself before if I fall for the right guy before not. But answer is maybe? I cannot tell if I did fall for the right guy not. Okay I am not trying to emo here uh.
I think I need to be independent from now on. I am so used to everything depending on others especially ah nic and many many more. Kinda missed those days whenever my lesson or work end late, there is someone here to fetch me home and make sure I am home safely. Pampered me like a princess girl, whenever I need someone to accompany me there is always a one person, whenever I am hungry in the middle of the night there is a someone who will buy over for me or call for delivered over for me. I got no worries that I will go on hunger and such. But I know I can't have it anymore.
Eileen :)
I am feeling so shit inside. Something heavily living inside me. Guess it's time for me to open up my bottle and buried everything inside again. I don't know who can I actually talk to. Teachers? Friends? Sisters? Or family? I can say NON!
This is my very first time feeling this way. Perhaps love bring me to somewhere they called it a "hell" and "heaven" many times. I flunk most of my relationship previously. But I am learning how to be strong and overcome everything myself each time.
People always say : falling in love is nothing wrong, but falling for the wrong guy is wrong. I did question myself before if I fall for the right guy before not. But answer is maybe? I cannot tell if I did fall for the right guy not. Okay I am not trying to emo here uh.
I think I need to be independent from now on. I am so used to everything depending on others especially ah nic and many many more. Kinda missed those days whenever my lesson or work end late, there is someone here to fetch me home and make sure I am home safely. Pampered me like a princess girl, whenever I need someone to accompany me there is always a one person, whenever I am hungry in the middle of the night there is a someone who will buy over for me or call for delivered over for me. I got no worries that I will go on hunger and such. But I know I can't have it anymore.
Eileen :)
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