Peace <3

Hello! 

Firstly I am back on reality that I am back for work. A short gateway of 3 days is never enough for me. Expected holiday 2weeks, and I know it's impossible. Fine, forget it.

Secondly, my cough is not getting any better for me. I should say it's getting worst for me. Consulted the doctor on Friday evening, being requested to go for large chest x-ray to make sure it's not any disease or tumor. Be safe than sorry isn't? The pain I should say it started spreading to my left side of chest and heart. Whenever I breathed, cough, sneeze or even laugh it started aching. I hope it's not any tumor. Or even best no infection too. X-ray report will be out only tomorrow afternoon. And of cause I know I am gonna be alright because I am always the lucky one. Good luck me.

Lastly, whenever I looked at old man, the way he treated me. I am speechless. Gonna admit that the flashed back between dbd and me did occur. I cannot denied that memories still exist. But the feel is no longer exist. I don't know how to describe the feeling in me. I bet that many people out there feel the same as me isn't?  

If I say I have moved on. Will anyone believe? True enough he is my first love. The first man I ever be so true. 

What the fuck am I thinking about now. Bull shit please. 

LOVE, 

Eileen Ong.

P/s: I miss you yet I do not have the courage to tell you. To this special person of mine I miss you. Goodnight!