Starting my exam on 24th June and ending on the 27th June. Can't wait for the day I shout graduate lo! A special day that I can say. It mark me that I have completed another education journey. Though I have been struggling since the first lesson till now. I still cannot adapt to my lesson and blend myself into it too. I still cannot handle it well with both studying and working at the same time. I get very tired when I go to class after a day of work, especially Saturday class. This sucks feeling is coming to the end real soon. Free from exam and project stress. I got more time for myself and friends. Time to catch up with them real soon.

I did a test on myself. I took a very huge courage to facebook message him and wish him happy birthday. I didn't expect any reply from him, cause I know he won't. But surprisingly he replied. Seriously I got no hope nor hard feeling on this. I am not thinking of any patch up despite breaking up for more than 3 years. I made up my mind to wish him is because I hope we are still friends. I know myself, both of us is getting well with our life. I am happy with what I have now, unsure if he feel the same not. It will never be the same anymore. The ''sibling'' bonding, a brother that will protect me, accompany me etc. And I don't wish this nightmare will occur again. 

This is parts and parcel in life. I might used to have you but life is always unfair. People come and go. I always believe real friend will stay no matter what. Time changed everyone. Including myself. I gave up everything about me and became someone very quiet and sensitive.

Eileen!