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(Guilty much) As mentioned on the previous update about sorting out my pictures and videos taken at Boracay, but thanks to the lazy bones and the impatient me I gave up half way through. So many duplicate pictures (edited and original) after uploading on social platform. Will get it fix fast before I have many more pictures to adding to my photo gallery.
Some quick updates over the month of March and April.
Celebrate Jean's birthday with dad at North point swensen, and with mum at Bugis Granny's secret. Since we are at Bugis waiting for mum, I brought one print overlay short, similar design as my new year outfit. Sudden in love with prints outfit.
21 March: A day I fall out with a friend (not going to name the person).
It is a day that I will never forget, because I lose a friend that I used to treasure alot. But due to so much of unhappy stuff inside me, I took up this courage to send her a long text with well prepared mind that I will definitely lose this friend for sure once she received it.
Saw this on Twitter,
After sharing it with most of my friends about this, like I said I will never take back the words I said. I have my right to say what I want, it doesn't matter what others gonna say about me.
If anyone ever ask me this few question again, my answer will always be the same.
1) Will we be friends again?
What do you think? Why would I make friend with her when I feel that she doesn't even treat me like a friend? Will only come to me when she need me? Whereby all her ''crush'' and the person she like and her bff is too busy for her. What I want is a friend who gonna standby me when I need them by my side, not someone who take me as a option or substitute cause the other options of her can't accompany her.
After much and much of lies, I don't know how much things she is still hiding behind my back. As I always say ''trust is like a paper, once it's crumpled it can't be PERFECT again.'' Unless she managed to turn the crumpled paper back to perfect. Whereby it's not possible in the first place. Unless she have this ''magic miracle power''.
2) Will I talk to her when I see on streets?
Perhaps NO. Will just simply passby her like I don't know her. I believe she will too. So why bother right?
3) Any chance if I will text her or she will text me again?
For me, definitely no. For her I don't know? I am not her. I can't read what's up on her mind. If by any chance she text me I doubt I will even reply cause I don't have her number anymore.
Actually I am not angry at her nor hate her at all. Just disappointed and I feel sad for her in life. I am not her and I can't expect her to think the same way like I do. Like I always told her, if she carry on being like this, not loving herself soon all her friends will start leaving her one by one. For now I really don't know which is the truth she is saying, I am no longer interested with what is happening to her, family abuse or whatsoever. Nothing more to expect from her, just hope that she will learn how to love herself more.
23rd March: Meet up with Zi hui
Meet up with Zi hui at Jem for dinner at Jack place. Finally a long meetup since before new year. As usual non stop chatting and nonsense again.
25 March: TP
Screwed up my test, I failed! 34 points, like fml double time. More on cutting lanes and safety check etc. Going for my 2nd attempt soon. Will update it soon (Real soon)
26 March: Meet up with old man
Meet up with old man for dinner at Cwp swensen, while he need to pass me my cider vinegar capsule. So nice of him help me order and then pass it to me.
I cooked egg mee sua (Longevity noodle) for him, as many people say younger generation people must cook for the the birthday star to give him/her our blessing, something like that. So I want give him my good blessing, give him good health and more wealth.
At night we treat him with Swensen again. Got free 3 scope ice cream cause it's his birthday. Didn't buy him a cake but a slice cause his father just passed away 1 month plus back, so not very nice la hor.
10 April: Meet up with Zi hui again
We meet up again, suppose to have kok hui with us, but he cannot make it as usual. We had Ofira Amazing Thai Food at Far East Plaza and then catch up a night movie at cck lot one, Fast and Furious 7.
Been so long since I step into lot one. Many memories flashback like free flow one. Not to mention names but I really want to thank those people who create and leave good memories behind for me. Though we are no longer in contact, but your greatly missed. Thank you my buddies.
11 April: A visit to late grandparents grave for qing ming
Coming June mark the 6th years since grandma left us.
Coming Dec mark the 12th years since grandpa left us.
So much untold things to share with them, how much I succeed and how much I have lose. I don't know if they can really ''see'' from ''above'', but I still believe they can ''see'' us and understand us.
12 April: Shopping time (Sister's outing)
Head out to Bugis to get some clothing. Brought 3 tops and 1 bottom and of cause another pair of new shoes.A monthly routine to get a pair of shoes after pay day.
14th April: Movie date
Watch Fast and Furious 7 with family since it's gv mc day, so tickets only $6.50 can watch la, don't mind watching it again anyway.
15th April (Today): Back to driving
Went back for driving lesson after 3 weeks of break. I am a blur driver on street. Only 3 weeks no drive only, somehow my skills like SHIT! Did U-turn okay good, cutting lanes too fast again -.-''' need more practice on this again, slope (my weakness and fear) I freaking roll back again. Fuck this shit seriously, but managed to do it well after 2nd try. Basically everything still okay, no engine cut or whatsoever stun that freak uncle out.
Eileen
(Guilty much) As mentioned on the previous update about sorting out my pictures and videos taken at Boracay, but thanks to the lazy bones and the impatient me I gave up half way through. So many duplicate pictures (edited and original) after uploading on social platform. Will get it fix fast before I have many more pictures to adding to my photo gallery.
Some quick updates over the month of March and April.
March
22 March: Jean BirthdayCelebrate Jean's birthday with dad at North point swensen, and with mum at Bugis Granny's secret. Since we are at Bugis waiting for mum, I brought one print overlay short, similar design as my new year outfit. Sudden in love with prints outfit.
21 March: A day I fall out with a friend (not going to name the person).
It is a day that I will never forget, because I lose a friend that I used to treasure alot. But due to so much of unhappy stuff inside me, I took up this courage to send her a long text with well prepared mind that I will definitely lose this friend for sure once she received it.
Saw this on Twitter,
''I think one of the saddest things is when two people really get to know each other: their secrets, their fears, their favorite things,what they love, what they hate, literally everything, and then they go back to being strangers. It's like you have to walk past them and pretend like you never knew them, never even talked to them before, when really, you know everything about them.''
Yes I cried. I cried not because I lose a friend, but I feel so hurt that someone I call and regard her as a friend but it seem like she doesn't treat me like one. Someone that I used to be close with have suddenly became a stranger to me.
Perhaps what she said is right we are not suited to be friends in the first place. I am happy that she is happy that she lose me as a friend, so am I. And one thing I am very sure is that I lose her as a friend is a right choice and of cause it's not a loss.
After sharing it with most of my friends about this, like I said I will never take back the words I said. I have my right to say what I want, it doesn't matter what others gonna say about me.
If anyone ever ask me this few question again, my answer will always be the same.
1) Will we be friends again?
What do you think? Why would I make friend with her when I feel that she doesn't even treat me like a friend? Will only come to me when she need me? Whereby all her ''crush'' and the person she like and her bff is too busy for her. What I want is a friend who gonna standby me when I need them by my side, not someone who take me as a option or substitute cause the other options of her can't accompany her.
After much and much of lies, I don't know how much things she is still hiding behind my back. As I always say ''trust is like a paper, once it's crumpled it can't be PERFECT again.'' Unless she managed to turn the crumpled paper back to perfect. Whereby it's not possible in the first place. Unless she have this ''magic miracle power''.
2) Will I talk to her when I see on streets?
Perhaps NO. Will just simply passby her like I don't know her. I believe she will too. So why bother right?
3) Any chance if I will text her or she will text me again?
For me, definitely no. For her I don't know? I am not her. I can't read what's up on her mind. If by any chance she text me I doubt I will even reply cause I don't have her number anymore.
Actually I am not angry at her nor hate her at all. Just disappointed and I feel sad for her in life. I am not her and I can't expect her to think the same way like I do. Like I always told her, if she carry on being like this, not loving herself soon all her friends will start leaving her one by one. For now I really don't know which is the truth she is saying, I am no longer interested with what is happening to her, family abuse or whatsoever. Nothing more to expect from her, just hope that she will learn how to love herself more.
23rd March: Meet up with Zi hui
Meet up with Zi hui at Jem for dinner at Jack place. Finally a long meetup since before new year. As usual non stop chatting and nonsense again.
25 March: TP
Screwed up my test, I failed! 34 points, like fml double time. More on cutting lanes and safety check etc. Going for my 2nd attempt soon. Will update it soon (Real soon)
26 March: Meet up with old man
Meet up with old man for dinner at Cwp swensen, while he need to pass me my cider vinegar capsule. So nice of him help me order and then pass it to me.
April:
07 April: Barney birthdayI cooked egg mee sua (Longevity noodle) for him, as many people say younger generation people must cook for the the birthday star to give him/her our blessing, something like that. So I want give him my good blessing, give him good health and more wealth.
At night we treat him with Swensen again. Got free 3 scope ice cream cause it's his birthday. Didn't buy him a cake but a slice cause his father just passed away 1 month plus back, so not very nice la hor.
10 April: Meet up with Zi hui again
We meet up again, suppose to have kok hui with us, but he cannot make it as usual. We had Ofira Amazing Thai Food at Far East Plaza and then catch up a night movie at cck lot one, Fast and Furious 7.
Been so long since I step into lot one. Many memories flashback like free flow one. Not to mention names but I really want to thank those people who create and leave good memories behind for me. Though we are no longer in contact, but your greatly missed. Thank you my buddies.
11 April: A visit to late grandparents grave for qing ming
Coming June mark the 6th years since grandma left us.
Coming Dec mark the 12th years since grandpa left us.
So much untold things to share with them, how much I succeed and how much I have lose. I don't know if they can really ''see'' from ''above'', but I still believe they can ''see'' us and understand us.
12 April: Shopping time (Sister's outing)
Head out to Bugis to get some clothing. Brought 3 tops and 1 bottom and of cause another pair of new shoes.A monthly routine to get a pair of shoes after pay day.
14th April: Movie date
Watch Fast and Furious 7 with family since it's gv mc day, so tickets only $6.50 can watch la, don't mind watching it again anyway.
15th April (Today): Back to driving
Went back for driving lesson after 3 weeks of break. I am a blur driver on street. Only 3 weeks no drive only, somehow my skills like SHIT! Did U-turn okay good, cutting lanes too fast again -.-''' need more practice on this again, slope (my weakness and fear) I freaking roll back again. Fuck this shit seriously, but managed to do it well after 2nd try. Basically everything still okay, no engine cut or whatsoever stun that freak uncle out.
Eileen
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