poly posting result is coming out. which is tomoro :( how? know I cannot get the course I want. I know my mum will start asking me what is my plan? which step I will be taking? What I am going to do next and such. The only thing I can tell her is I DONT KNOW. STOP ASKING CAN? Seriously, I dont know. No point forcing me whereby me myself dont know what I really want. It's a pissed alright.
Think I need to sit down and talked to her nicely. But i know it's impossible one. Why? Whenever I told her my planned all, before i could just complete my sentence, she will just said it's useless. What can you do from there? This is the reason why I dont shared my plan and thought with family, they cannot paused a lil while listened to me before they opened their hippo mouth.
I know education now is freaking impt than anything else. But what can I do when I dont have the heart to continue my studies. Why nobody can just understand me? I know working outside now is not as easy as what i am doing in gv. ~Popping popcorn, prepare cheese, packing nachos, grilling hotdogs, clearing hall, collect and issued 3d glasses, tear tickets, sitting down selling tickets and such. How long more can i stayed in gv? Another 5 years? 10 years? 15 years? 20 years? NO WAY!!!!! Seeing all my friend moving on to another working environment but not me.
Can anyone please tell me what to do? I am so lost.
It's my off day today. Took it specially for someone. But want I get in return is disappointment again. I promised I wont do silly things like purposely took off for nothing.
Going for BHC tgt with Jun Chang tomoro. Somewhere in Singapore. I only know the nearest train station is at Tanjong Pajar. Gotta wake up freaking early. Lesson starting at 8 I think. It's a whole day course. Shit! I might fall asleep inside the class. Might be meeting my Cinta after that. Going chill chill session with her. ~waiting!!!!!
Eileen :)
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