3 more days to Christmas. I don't know how to describe my feeling now. I should feel excited and happy as I can receive loads of gifts and cards. But somehow something is so amiss. I don't know what is missing either, the feeling wasn't right.

Chatted otp with Ryden last night. Seriously I envy Elaine. She got someone who love her more than she love him. How I wish I could have too :( Last night I cried when mummy dinosaur asked me to open up my heart for  him. I don't know if he is serious this not, but I dare not try to open up my heart for anyone else now. Just because I am so scare of getting hurt once again. I know not everyone is the same. I am so selfish to keep my heart close super tight to prevent people from breaking it.

I know mummy dinosaur is trying his best to make sure I move on and live happily. Yes! With him around with me, I am really happy and content. I don't need him to travel all the way to my house to keep me accompany, accompany me chatting the whole night and such. He is more than anything. Whenever I met in something scary, he will be the first person I thought of. I will called him and I know he will try his best to protect me and make me feel safe. Thanks my dear. Your the best of all :)

eileen :)