Pointless... ... ...

Two word: pointless and hopeless!

Never in my life I had this hopeless feeling. Not because I am in a debts or difficulties in relationship or even school. But it's my work related. It's freaking funny isn't it?

Well honestly, the relationship between the worker and me is drifting far apart. Not because I don't put myself in their shoes or I don't feel them. But the main objective is: do they try to understand and feel me? I doubt so. What I can say is all of them is selfish, expecting me to understand them and also give them the best benefit of all. One thing: because our boss is actually my uncle. But so what? The company is not mine after all. I am not in the position to make any decision.

Looking back on the workers daily feedback book, it make me realised I am just a fool. No matter what happened, I will still think of a way and of cause will try my best to do a positive feedback instead of negative ones, it will make my heart feel better. But I know it seem to exceed my limit more than anything else.

I hate the situation I am in. I hate the way I cheated my heart in order to make myself feel better.

Regards,
Eileen